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Abandoned. I miss Pulua Sarang so freaking much. ):

Oh crap, my nose is suffering from a major major MAJOR leakage, oh god damn it. Tissue box and tissue paper piling up on my bed, again. I just ate (I think like an hour or so ago?) some japanese peas and I think I had a tad too much, got kinda sick of it. Due to. Overwhelming hunger. Thought it would be a great idea to like cook the remaining 1/4 packet of peas and ooooh, I was so damn wrong. I love the peas so much, but now I'm so afraid of eating too many at one go. K, why am I even talking about peas? Tell me about it.

I've been so unfaithful to my blog lately, awww. Life has been rather mundane. 'Cause of the yadahyadah daily routine whatever nonsense shit bullcrapblah. Uh, kayyy. I'm making no sense. OKAY. It's so late already. Understood.

Ok ok. Serious now. I've been cut off from the world, I guess. Due to the tremendous burden of having to study AND work at the same time. I'm so miserably time poor now. ): I can't even find time for me lately, well, only now. That's why I'm like making full use of it to chat, upload long dued photographs and what's not lar.

Hmmmm, one word to describe me, still. One word.
CONFUSED.
Can anyone tell me what do I really want?
Acutally I do, but it just doesn't come so easily, does it?
What I really want is so simple, yet so difficult to achieve.
Years, am I not patient enough?
Stupid tear-jerking scenes, stupid memories, stupid you.
Scaring haunting pasts, that doesn't fail to get into you..
Family.. lovers.. friends..
Yet again, I'm so worn out, so crest-fallen, so utterly upset.
Growing up has never been so hurting.
And Love shouldn't hurt.
Well, whatever.

Today saw me with bestie for toasts, teh-see and apple juice :] Thanks darling, for everything. Thanks for listening, giving me moral support, for your guidance, and that ever understanding heart of yours. Distance may have been the reason we haven't been seeing each other, but nevertheless you've still proven me wrong. Even with the distance, I'm sure you won't let this 7 coming to 8 years go to waste. I was wrong to think that you don't want to care anymore. But I should have been so much more understanding. I thank God. Thank Him for keeping this friendship ever so strong even though I've lost faith, that you girl, still make it all the way back, just for me. I'm deeply overwhelmed with gratitude, 'cause I've found you. Thanks Olivia.

Feels like I can finally express my thoughts for you, to you. :) I can't wait to attend your wedding, be the bride's maid on you wedding days in Singapore and Italy. I hope that you have found the man you love and you wish to be with for the rest of your life, have his little green eye babies and start a wonderful new life, a family :) I can't wait to carry your SON! LOL. Remember girl, I'll always be there like you have always been for me too. I LOVE YOU.

Su-hanna Quek Geok Hee has not been forgotten toooooo. YOU ARE SO NOT FORGOTTEN PLEASE. You are the strength that keep my flames going on this coming almost 3 years. Thank God that he has let you enter my life. I guess without you, I'll be wobbling my way through Poly. Heh. Thanks for all your little words of encouragement every single time I needed them, your guidance, your listening ear for hearing my terrible woes, your company! OUR FUN. :) Thank YOU, my fake lesbian partner. You will always be my lesbian crush. I'll always be your JOLEBEANIES :D

Time flew.
Where will he be.
Where will they be.
&where will I be...

"Someone who can show you the true meaning of Love, and not lust.. Anymore.."